Musings II

Imagine how it would be to be alone in a land that is far away from earth, the sun and devil. There is no one other than you and your God who is no one but you. It would be a fantastic experience to be lost and never even bother to find your way out as you would know that it is where you have always wanted to be. Walking along the roadside with your shadow as your company! How about a guitar and marijuana on your mind and you keep on humming your favourite tunes, and words that are just straight from heart. Perhaps sometimes Mr Marley and Mr Dylan can join in the road party along with you and your shadow!! Listen to the mystery that is waft around a phenomenon that is known as the life. Something so fantastic about life is that it is absolutely unpredictable. You never know that whether we will leave enough air to see the morning sun. But still we dream, dream about a day that is shiny and beautiful. I guess this is what keeps us going. The essence of a man to keep on dreaming about life that is absolute. But life is a good teacher. Next morning when you see the young sun, you feel good enough to take on the earth. But as the sun ripe and so the energy, you heat the hard stone on the road and it starts to pain. Then you realise that it is not like the same dream that you dreamt last night. It is life which is different completely from a dream. So I don’t want to get into the complicacy and just get lost into the oblivion and the unknown. A place where there is no room for either reality or the dream. It is just pure vacuum and you keep on float mode never being bothered by anything. Happy Floating!!! And you just don’t have anything to complain about anything to cheer about anything to be stoic about. You just let yourself be who you really are. No strings attached. Nothing about to change and nothing is everything. So, how does it feel? Its all about sex, drugs and rock n roll. Phew!!! Do I ever want to come out of this? No, if I had an option. Only if I had an option. Alas!! There is something about being no one. Oh!! The feeling is absolutely wonderful. Oh Lord!! If I can live like a no one. Bless me!!

Musings 1

There is something so stupid that goes around in this world. While we let ourselves to free fall without letting anything to bother ourselves, then this sweet whiff of air that travels along with you swept your mind to such a place from where you will refuse to return. Sometime, it is impossible to learn that why at all you allowed yourself to unwind and swam with the flow. Impossible is a word that gets counted and well when you are lost in that jungle without knowing any clue about it how to get out of it. Should I keep my candle of hope burning or should I let the storm take care of it? The dark clouds that came from nowhere the other day flounced everything in my dream land. A land that I have so meticulously weaved around someone, where we would indulge ourselves in the some of the most wonderful dreams. People say it is good to dream and I wonder if I could ever live it anymore. The harsh realty that has ruthlessly crushed my mind and bruised my soul for no fault of mine will keep on haunting me until a time when nothing will matter. Today, I believe what Bob Dylan has sung “When you’ve got nothing, you’ve got nothing to lose”. True, if I had nothing to lose some days ago, I would not have been a loser. The lost has been realized. It is cruel and hard but it is the truth. I have to believe in it even if I don’t want to. The reality rules, the truth rules and I have to honour. In today’s hard life, it is not only about how much love and emotions you can invest, but how much you can spend and how profitable can be the venture. It is all about money and it is only about money. Make no mistake about this, it is only and only about money. What if you love so much, what if you care for so much, what if you want to live forever for, what if you stand tall and nothing to bother, and you are still a loser just because I do not have any more left to spend. So, "don’t think twice it’s alright".